Remember Today

Remember Today. Today is a big day. I go to mediation with my ex husband for the "rights" to my children. Obviously I called them "mine". I say this because I am a mother, and very protective of them. It is unfortunate that we live 5 miles apart and he will not allow me to have them on request. It is unfortunate that I know why he's doing being so mean. Because I know the reasons, does it change the facts that children need their mother? This isn't about me, it's about what's best for them and it's nothing against my ex either. For the past 6 months we have had a week on week off schedule, trying to cope with him allowing us to move, then re-enrolling them in school on a scheduled visit. The last six months have tested every ounce of strength I have or had. The fact of the matter is that love heals all. I love those kids so much that to save them, I would let them stay with him if he would just quit using them as pawns. However, it's not in my power to do that. I am not the judge of him. If God thinks my kids are better off with him, He'll have to be the one to give them. So, as I sit here and type, I will go to mediation in 2 hours, without an attorney, with subsidized mediation fees and God as my shield. I'll go and rest in His presence, without worry. This is His battle to fight with the enemy. Not mine - I've given it up, all I have to do is show up. It's show time.

So that says - it's show time. I just have the essentials. The Word from Him that said that if I seek first the Kingdom of God and His righteousness, all these things will be given unto me. But it's not about me or them, but I am to be a spokesperson for the needy and the poor in spirit, if I give up and give in - from a defeated spirit, then I gave God's power away. It's about Him and His glory. So whatever comes next, it will be credited to His account - without question.

Because I have no idea what I'll say - other than kids need to be with their mother.